Worked all day today with the laborers trying to finish up Rod’s remodel. Even though Rod is gone, I don’t know what else to call what has been going on except, “Rod’s remodel.” It would have never happened had Rod not asked me to do what I thought was best for him.
For those who don’t know,
Rod is in need of constant care in his current state of mind. We felt that being around children and a woman who was loving, kind and serving would do him good. We found that woman in a lady named Doriann Stubbs, who was attempting to find a way out of the LDS/Mormon Fundamentalist lifestyle pertaining to Colorado City. Rod would have provided her and her children with a place to live in a completely different, safe and secure environment and Doriann would have served Rod’s needs.
We found a condo that we could fix up to move Julie Taggart into so that Doriann and her children could move in and care for Rod in his condo. We traded in Rod’s car for a brand new Toyota van that could accommodate Rod and Doriann and her children. I authorized the construction and purchase of many thousands of dollars worth of materials and work that needed to be done for Rod’s sake, believing that one day he could pay back everything I authorized once he had paid off his ex-wife’s alimony requirement.
Indeed, Rodney Vessels had caused my life extreme stress over the past few months as we made the best decisions we could for his sake.
I know that Rod’s heart, behind his mental disability, is good. I know that he could sense the stress that he had put me under and the financial burden to the MWAW in caring for him and preparing a new life for him. But he lost his trust in me, believing that having Doriann and her kids move in and all the stress I was going through was not the right thing.
Rod did what he did to end the burden, not to be mean, not to be malicious, not to cause more problems. He sacrificed his relationship with me and the MWAW to end this burden. His heart was good, his intention courageous, his sacrifice great … at least in his own mind … which ultimately, is the only thing that counts.
I now have to deal with the decisions I made because of Rod, but am relieved that I will not have to make any more concerning him.
We are still going to let Doriann and her children live in Rod’s condo and make a new life for themselves, but we must demand her corroboration in finding a way to pay for their expenses and debts. The MWAW is going to somehow pay for the van and utilize it to the benefit the work, or we will give it back and let Sheri’s credit suffer, as she is the one who signed for it. We are going to work everything out … eventually.
I learned a very important lesson from my dealings with Rodney J. Vessels: no matter how much love and devotion I personally have for a person, I’m not free, acting in the role of this MWAW, to intercede and do anything on their behalf personally. If I can’t do it for everyone equally, I shouldn’t be doing it for anyone.
The great sacrifice brought great knowledge.
The negative side of all this is that Rod has given my critics/enemies more fodder to paint me as a fraud. I failed at knowing what was best for my friend. Rod has put me in a precarious situation in how those who already see me as a “crazy cult leader” (i.e., his family and friends) might pursue me in the future.
Well enemies/critics and those who act like they care for Rod, remember this:
I wanted nothing to do with Rod after he had his stroke back in September of 2011. I was counseled not to have anything to do with him, which emotionally hurt me. I didn’t become involved until November when he pleaded with me to intervene.
So,
Was it not the right thing when I was counseled by those who oversee this work? When Rod contacted me in November, I knew it was going to be a great sacrifice to intercede, but I did it because of my emotions. Those who counsel me allow me my emotions, then do all that they can to help me follow those emotions and learn from them.
I learned a great lesson,
When it comes to the MWAW, never listen to your emotions. Listen to those who run this work.
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On another note,
We finally received our first enemy/critic story for the MWAW official site. It came from Harry Dschaak, who makes the claim that he was part of an “inner circle” at one time, pertaining to this work.
(Let it be known, there was never, there is not, nor will there ever be, an “inner circle” to this work. There was never, there is not, nor will there ever be a “group” associated with this work.)
It was wonderful to receive Harry’s story, however; and all those who have dealt with Harry in relation to the MWAW, you’ll enjoy his story … it’s all Harry! :-) (I’m not going to spend the time to point out Harry’s lies and exaggerations because, to him, they are the only truth he will ever accept. No need to. Those who have known Harry won’t have a hard time figuring out his agenda and see through his lies.)
But, I’ve got to give it to Harry for bringing more credibility to the MWAW by just being him. :-)
I encourage anyone to meet with Harry in person and converse with him for awhile. Give him some time (a lot of time) and experience. Then you won’t need me or anyone else to describe or define his credibility.
Harry has the phone number to the MWAW Radio Show. He can call anytime he desires. But there’s one thing Harry will never do … which could prove his credibility, or not … that’s meet me in a public venue where one would have a fair opportunity to see us face to face discussing the issues that he brings up and determine who really has the credibility.
One will find that the MWAW is the only work found anywhere that will allow anyone who desires … anyone … to post his or her story, positive or negative, about this work. I encourage as many enemies/critics as would like to submit your stories. None will be edited, none will be rejected.
Why would we do this?
Because the MWAW has nothing to hide and because the information presented in this work doesn’t need to be defended. There is no fear of anything that is written against the MWAW.
Again, I encourage any and all my critics and enemies to follow Harry’s lead and submit their stories … but remember … and this is important … one must also submit a real current picture, color and song.
Thanks, Harry! You couldn’t have done more for the credibility of this work. :-)
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Worked hard all day then went with Glen Iverson, Andrew LeBaron and Julie Taggart to the gym to play basketball and unwind a bit. I haven’t played basketball for quite a few years. Boy, the 50 year-old mind doesn’t work the same with a 20 year-old brain. :-)
I needed to sweat, which I did …
… now I might be able to sleep.
