Made my way back to Orem, Utah on Friday.
I said hello to Ida Smith and Stephen Kammerman (who’s working for the Thiedes on their condo) first. I saw Julie standing in her bedroom window and waved to her (she sent me a note telling me that it wasn’t much of a greeting). Sheri came home and I was with her the rest of the day. We visited a few minutes with DoriAnn and her kids.
I must be honest,
I had a hard time “coming back to earth” and dealing with the relationships I have made during this life. It became obvious to Sheri today (Saturday) that I was having a hard time. She felt my uncomfortableness even around her for a time. I had promised Ida that I would visit her for a few moments this weekend, but I can’t seem to conquer (yet) the stark transition between both of the different emotional worlds: the game of life and the reality of who we are and why we exist here.
I probably won’t visit with Ida or anyone else this weekend. Sheri’s work vacation starts next week and I am going to spend some time “having fun” with her. I have to go to court for the preliminary hearing on the child support crime next Tuesday, so our vacation won’t start until that’s over. I hope to be able to “have fun” and the few days between now and then will help get my mind ready so that I don’t ruin Sheri’s vacation time.
It will take me a bit more time to get used to “living in the world but not of the world.” During the last 25 years that I have been preparing for this role, I have never designated a couple days of the week (or even one) to completely isolate myself away from the world. The truth is, I’d rather stay in that other world, but it’s obvious why I can’t.
I can say that it has been a great relief to finally be able to tell people the whole real truth and to “disclose my true identity” and prepare for the official launch of this Marvelous Work and a Wonder®.
Now here’s the emotional conundrum that currently faces me in dealing with other people:
It was easier for me to deal with them inside their belief systems, opinions, fantasies and ideas about themselves, … to play tea and crumpets with them. You see, this is their only reality, at least the only one that is real to them. It’s what brings them emotional comfort and security. So, I can relate to them a lot better playing their game, for their sakes.
The issue of my uncomfortness comes from their inability to exist in my reality. They do not know what I know, therefore they can’t act and react to me in the only reality that I know. They can only act and react in their reality.
So what I’m basically saying is,
I’m generally only comfortable around them when I am playing their game. But I don’t want to play their game, and now I suspect that they don’t want me to play games with them, but be real, true to my “true identity.” But if I do, they wouldn’t like being around me because it would devalue everything they do in their reality. Sigh … :-)
I won’t be seeing anyone this weekend.
I have received some inquires about a person using his or her free will to “wake up from the game of life” and not play anymore. Is it possible? Can we, of our own free will, end the game?
Well, suicide doesn’t count. Anyone who commits suicide is not ready for the game to be over, except the current game that they are playing. Any who commit suicide will be coming back into the game again, but, yes, according to their free will, playing a completely different character.
During tomorrow’s MWAW Radio Show, I will explain the only way that any of us can cause the game to stop, or rather … in a religious context that some understand, how we can “cut the work short in righteousness.”
The stories of the translation of Enoch and his city is based on what it takes to end the game. Moroni describes the city and how the people were put to sleep and transported back to their primordial planet. Remember, The Sealed Portion teaches us in parables and in ways that are comfortable to our individual tea party. But the real truth is hidden in the story.
Tune in and we’ll talk about it.
Yes, there’s a way.
Will we do it?
Not the group of human beings assigned to this solar system. We’ll discuss why.
Now I am beginning to see why the radio show is a better way for me to deliver the message than meeting in person. In person, I would be more apt to play your games. When none are in my presence, I’m more apt to deliver the message without the games.