DOMINIC LARKIN'S PERSONAL STORY
22 October 2010
How I came to this Marvelous Work and a Wonder (MWAW)
May I first of all say PEACE to you who may choose to read my story. I say this now because for the very first time in my conscious existence in this world I have more peace within me than ever before because of finding this MWAW. I have been able to let many things go both in beliefs, thoughts, and material things of this world.
I see myself as being a normal human male or as normal as any man in this day and age is probably.
I have had and continue to have my share of human faults and weaknesses like everyone else and have made my fair share of screw-up’s in life.
But it’s all good as I come to realize what works and what does not work for me. What brings me peace and what does not. It is all for my experience and learning assisting me in coming to know myself better. It has not been easy to accept that, and I have rebelled quite nicely over the year’s thank you.
I recognize now that only I am responsible for my choices, none other. I have cast my fair share of blame on others because of my blindness and unwillingness to accept responsibility for being what I was during the various phases of my growing up and maturing to where I am at in life now. I blamed everyone for what went wrong in my life. I especially blamed God for putting me into this world and making my life so miserable at times. Oh! How I cursed Him and ranted and raved at heaven often saying I never asked to be created.
As a child my mother always taught me that I should pray. I became very dutiful in doing just that even to the extent of having conversations in my head with God as I would walk to school or almost in anything I did I was constantly communicating with the being I was taught was God which my imagination saw as sitting high up above everyone and millions of angels worshipping him.
I had a singular experience when I was about 10 maybe 11 walking down the fields at the back of our house. I was raised in the country on a dysfunctional farm (meaning not much activity going on). I loved walking down the fields and along the river as it was a great way for me to get away from everything and have some peace.
Anyway this day I was minding my own business, generally lost in my own thoughts as usual and was a couple fields away all by myself, when I was stunned to hear my name being called as though the voice was right beside me or in me. It was the most perfectly clear voice I had or have ever heard in my entire life to date. It permeated every part of my being. I looked around the field and over to the neighbors field to my north and could not see a single person anywhere. I looked towards where our house was to the east which was over a hill but could not see anyone in that direction either.
I did the only thing a 10/11yr old boy raised in the Catholic religion knew how to do
He replied no he did not hear anyone, again I was amazed at the very same crystal clear clarity I heard the second time. But it got my attention immediately and was something I have given much thought to over the years. In a way it kind of made me feel special somehow.
Since finding this MWAW I have now learned how that voice may have come about. (See the book “Human Reality—Who We Are and Why We Exist!.)
I always loved studying mystery stuff like the Bermuda Triangle, disappearance of ships and planes etc, UFO’S and anything out of the ordinary, especially what I would call spiritual stuff and anything mysterious. I totally enjoyed looking up at the stars at night and being raised in a part of the country in Ireland where there was virtually no light pollution at all was a marvelous experience to see all those lights up there in the night sky and ponder on the meaning of it all which I did a lot.
Looking back I feel all this was important to me at the time as it gave me the desire to find answers to the mysteries of life and why this earth/world existed amidst all those stars in the universe. What was the purpose of it all, a question that went around and around in my head a lot and which caused much frustration for me.
I was often told I was gullible because of the weird stuff I would read and listen to and believe. I enjoyed the weird stuff which not many others of my acquaintance seemed to have any time for. It just seemed I was wired that way.
I didn’t always enjoy the same kind of experiences that were common to others such as sports, etc. I never knew what games were playing or who the sports stars were and it was difficult for me to converse with people on these subjects. I liked being alone a lot and came to enjoy my own company quite well which allowed my imagination to have free rein sometimes. I also over indulged in alcohol and I found comfort in being drunk occasionally. I had my first pint of beer at age 11. My father was quite proud of the fact that I sat at the bar with him in the local pub and downed a pint of his favorite beer and didn’t seem to be the worst for it.
Growing up, I was very shy and reticent and was out of balance with the world around me my family included. Because I did not know why I existed or the purpose of life, I was angry a lot of the time. I hated school with a passion and couldn’t understand why I had to learn so much stuff that I could see no purpose for in my life. This was one of the reasons for my going for long walks through the woods and fields which I liked doing a lot. I loved fishing and indeed anything that gave me time by myself.
The only 2 subjects I really liked in school were reading and religion. I just seemed to gravitate towards anything which was spiritual. The very first time I ever heard or seen the name Jesus in red letters on a card handed to me by the nuns mesmerized me and I kept looking at it for what seemed like a long time. That name just seemed to resonate with me. I loved the stories of Jesus in the gospels and seemed I couldn’t get enough of them. It seemed easy for me to believe as I got older that everything was possible even for me if I only knew how to make it happen.
I saw the world as very unjust and felt powerless to do anything about it. I ended up being very intimidated by authority figures as I was physically punished and beaten into submission by those who were the immediate authority figures and teachers in my life.
At one point in my life I harbored thoughts of becoming a Catholic Priest thinking it would be a good way of serving God. But then my flesh got the better of me and I chose not to be celibate. Didn’t like that idea at all.
In 1976 at the age of 22, not having much direction in my life I became a convert to the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints (LDS/Mormon) church. This began to give me direction in how my life should go and the leaders of that Church became role models of sorts. This was an exciting time as I gave up smoking which I had been doing since age 12 and alcohol which I had been doing from about the same time.
The next 2 years I learned everything I could about the LDS faith and steeped myself in its doctrines. I felt I should serve a mission and was called to the Scotland Edinburgh mission in Sept 1978. Those 2 years was great life experience in seeing how others lived. I became pretty good at convincing people of the truth of the LDS message and had a few baptisms to my credit. I learned to enjoy speaking in public and overcame my shyness and got a lot more confidence in myself. I learned to love the people and tolerate our differences. I even had healing experiences among the people I taught by using my “priesthood”.
I really wanted to be successful in life as were those I perceived in church who were successful in the things of the world as being more blessed of god for keeping his commandments. I thought all the LDS members were pretty much perfect and that they were the elite of god’s people on the earth and to be emulated. I would typically ignore that which was in conflict with my belief system. I was a great defender of my faith.
Like I said previously I devoured every piece of literature, books etc pertaining to the LDS church that I could get my hands on. I was excited about learning new truths as I perceived them at the time because I had been starved of it for so long. It seemed when I heard something new (truth) that resonated within me, this “spiritual” feeling would be in attendance and I would get excited about it. I loved that euphoric feeling. I now know I would get that same feeling when in a sales meeting for when I got excited about something of interest to me would also create that same feeling.
It was hard for me to reconcile the old testament of a vengeful god with the new testament of a loving god within the bible. It made no sense to me. I couldn’t reason it out and so like most people I just let it glide over me.
I liked the visit of Jesus to the Nephite’s in the book of Mormon and his teachings of the sermon on the mount made sense though I didn’t live it too good. There was just something about the book of Mormon which enticed me to believe it. I especially liked the story of how Joseph Smith Jr. came to get the plates and his first visit from a heavenly personage. This really resonated with me. When I got into the stories of the book of Mormon and its teachings I found its message very plausible. I totally loved the part about Christ’s visit to the Nephites.
I was truly fired with the zeal of the new LDS convert and I embraced my new faith with all my heart. I was a true convert in every way.
Before leaving for the Scotland Edinburgh mission, I visited my mother who was still heartbroken that I had left the Catholic Church to join this new religion. She very pointedly said to me as I prepared to leave her house that I had no right to change anyone’s belief’s unless I really had something better to replace it with. In my zeal and arrogance, I assured her I had. Though in recent years I see the wisdom of her words.
“We claim the privilege of worshiping Almighty God according to the dictates of our own conscience, and allow all men the same privilege, let them worship how, where, or what they may”.
One can only imagine how I was feeling as I drove away that day with her words ringing in my ears, really asking myself if I was doing the right thing, but also trying to feel very sure of myself and my beliefs. To convince someone to change their beliefs is a very powerful thing. In my arrogance I really thought I had the real truth being LDS. I really believed that its leaders were inspired of god and that what they said was literal truth.
Then in 2004 I got into a personal development program which caused me to look deeply within. Thus began my earnest reflection on life again. I began to realize I did not need religion but did not have the courage to go against my LDS beliefs which were so ingrained within me. I also had to contend with the wishes of my wife of the time because of the children.
I continued to study various “spiritual” books some authored by LDS writers, but mostly by others. I knew I was in conflict and was not happy being a member of the LDS faith anymore and I knew that free speech was greatly curtailed in our meetings. It seemed there was an unspoken rule and speaking your mind was not acceptable if it did not fall within LDS doctrine.
I rationalized and agonized for years whether to stay in my marriage because of the teachings of the LDS church or to quit. I was not happy at all. I knew I was making my wife miserable as well as myself because I could not give her what she wanted in the relationship, yet I was continuing to try and be a good Mormon and live up to my priesthood responsibilities which brought me no joy, while knowing within myself that I had no place there anymore.
So what was to follow next took me by surprise. I had learned to meditate and really enjoyed the experience when one day I came out of a very good relaxing meditation experience and saw the LDS Doctrine and Covenants on the table and just flipped it open to section 42 and my eyes fell on verse 61 which reads “ if thou shalt ask, thou shalt receive revelation upon revelation, knowledge upon knowledge, that thou mayest know the mysteries and peaceable things- that which bringeth joy, that which bringeth life eternal.”
This stopped me in my tracks and I immediately fell to my knees stabbing my finger into the page where the verse was and exclaiming out loud that this is what I want. I know there are Angels who can see me, this is what I want. I was very clear as I said that this is what I wanted as I continued to stab my finger into the page.
I knew nothing about the true order of prayer at this time as taught in the LDS temple. I just did what I had been conditioned to do all my life and that was pray with the words of my mouth. However my action which came from my heart was all those Angels needed, to point me in the right direction to begin my journey to truth.
A week later I met a person who asked me if I understood the LDS Temple endowment ceremony to which I replied I did not. I said does anyone? He said he had a copy of it with an explanation of what it meant. This person was not even a member of the LDS church and how could he be talking about something so sacred to all of Mormondom, let alone have a copy of it. How could this be outside the sacred temple as I had been taught never to discuss anything which went on inside the temple?
He then said he would send me a copy of it with a translation that had been done previously sometime in the 1970s by Max Skousen. This translation appeared to be a Masonic version but followed exactly the pre 1990 LDS version of the endowment.
So I felt scared but also very excited to have this in my hands. It was almost overwhelming to have access to this but I knew within myself that I was growing spiritually and I was not going to tell the Bishop or hardly anyone else for that matter that I was reading this. I believe this was a stepping stone in preparing me for the real truth when it came along. Of course at the time I felt I was getting truth. Anyway I could not put this document down and devoured it with great earnestness which resulted in expanding my mind to a whole new level of awareness.
The fact that there was some kind of translation of the LDS temple endowment was amazing to me and at last I thought I began to understand its meaning. I can honestly say all through the years as a regular LDS temple attendee that I was none the wiser coming out than when I went in.
We are told to find joy in serving in the house of the Lord. I don’t think I really had very much joy other than looking forward to becoming a king and priest in some far off celestial world and thinking that we have this endowment, which we don’t understand, while the rest of the world was deprived of its blessings, made me feel more special than others not of the LDS persuasion, probably the most joy I truly got out of this endowment was that I was among the “chosen” of the Lord being LDS for this special presentation none really understood. Yea, how special I was! Also in attending the temple there was always that feeling of being unworthy, wondering if you really were good enough.
I had not yet discovered the MWAW and I knew nothing about the correct translation of the temple ceremony as in “Sacred not Secret the official guide in understand the LDS temple endowment” translated by Christopher that gives the correct explanation of its meaning’s. That would come later.
From this point onwards I continued to receive information from different sources. I was open to everything because I had made that promise to myself. I was reading everything I got my hands on doing classes on chakra’s, energy work, meditation and sweat lodge ceremonies and getting into stuff I would never have dreamed about before, when I had been a staunch LDS member. Indeed at one time in my zeal as a good member of the LDS faith I would have strongly discouraged anyone from straying from the teachings of the brethren. And so here I am doing everything against what I would have taught previously. I was changing fast.
I was introduced to the Mentinah Archives and read most of the volumes written by Phillip Landis (Cloudpiler) I picked up some information I thought was valuable at the time. I enclose what Christopher has said about them as follows:
When I was reading them I was excited to think how everything was being revealed in these last days so as to speak. They even had a copy of the temple ceremony in modified form in the second volume which again surprised me.
I continually lacked the courage to leave the LDS church. I kept holding on and having all this conflict within me. Now that I am out I am amazed I allowed it to have such a hold over me. I believe the power the leaders wield is in the fear they induce within people on how this is the only true church of god on the earth which they also believe with all their hearts just as I did.
Sometimes we don’t know why we search or look for things to make sense except that we do. I was no different than anyone else and I continued to search to find meaning more meaning in life than the canned version I was getting in the LDS church.
Then one day at work a fellow employee came up to me and invited me over to his house for that evening without telling me what it was about. All he said was, “I want you to come over to my house this evening as I have something I think will be of interest to you, as I know your into all this kind of spiritual stuff.”
This got my curiosity up and so that evening I held in my hand a computer print out of “The Sealed Portion” (TSP) of the book of Mormon as translated by Christopher Marc Nemelka through the Urim and Thummim. I could hardly believe it. Was it really out? I began to read and sometime later my friend said to me are you going to stay here all night reading? I could easily have done so. He even offered for me to sleep on the couch if I wanted to.
It’s interesting that this same guy who invited me over to look at the sealed portion has never done anything with it at all. Never read it completely and never checked out this work in any seriousness. I think that’s amazing. Here’s the greatest work in the world being unfolded and yet so few have the interest to follow through on it.
That evening I went home and began my studies in earnest. So it was pretty late into the night before I got to bed. Every word I read just leads me to another and within a very short time I instinctively knew the truth of the work. It began to make perfect sense to me. Then for some reason I decided to do some research online about the translator.
I learnt something of what he had been through, both in his denial in not wanting to take on the task of translation and own his voice and what he had reportedly told the media and that it was all a lie etc. Yet despite what the media had reported there was just something about all this that attracted me. Almost like a magnet I was drawn to the author and this work.
Even though the author had been in jail etc, I felt as though I could discern the truth of who he was and what his mission to the world was about and all which had been said about him did not deter me from wanting to read what he had produced. It just felt true to me and felt right that I should check this out more completely.
I felt I was finding truth and it was resonating with my spirit so I wanted more.
After more research online and looking at lots of court papers, I found a phone number and address for Christopher and so the following morning I phoned him. He picked up and said “hello, who is this, how can I help you?” or words to that effect. I said I was looking for Christopher Marc Nemelka, to which he replied “you found him”, how can I help you? I told him I had found his translation of The Sealed Portion (TSP) and wanted to know from his own mouth if what he had written concerning how it had come about was the truth. He first asked me if I was searching for truth, the question took me a little by surprise but I replied that yes I was. He then said “well you’ve found it, how can I help you”? I asked him if what I had read of how TSP had come about and all that had happened to him if this was all true and accurate as he had written in his testimony in the Sealed Portion, to which he replied that yes it was. I said to him that I needed to hear him tell me from his own mouth.
He then proceeded to tell me that the only way I could have gotten that number I called him on, is if I was searching for truth. I guess that’s the reason he asked me that question, are you searching for truth, and to which I replied I was. As best as I can remember, he instructed me to be happy within myself which would give me a barometer of my closeness with God. In other words the happier I became within myself the closer to God I would be and also nerver tell other people what to do but respect their agency to be themselves.
That night I decided to order the books so I could read the printed word on paper as I don’t care for reading so much on the screen. But the website did not work properly for me and would not process the order with the credit card I was using. So, the following day I called the same number again and it went to voice mail. Later that day John Roh contacted me to see how he could help me and we talked for a while and I placed the order with him over the phone. I then received the TSP books and the 666 book and began reading.
I was encouraged to join the truthshallsetyoufree.com (now defunct) discussion group and read and learn what had been posted there.
Sometime afterwards I met John Roh who was the very first person I met pertaining to this work. We sat and talked for quite a while and he informed that the phone number I had contacted Christopher on was no longer in use. Perhaps I was the last “investigator” to call him on that number. (-:
Several times as I read TSP I wanted to throw everything I have ever accumulated away, and just walk free to be myself and not be encumbered with the garbage of materialism and earthly responsibilities. I still feel that way. I have simplified my life quite a bit since accepting this MWAW and eliminated many things that no longer brought me joy which had been a burden to me. Trying to maintain the lifestyle I had created was sapping all my energy. I realized I had spent a great deal of my time wondering about retirement and being secure financially etc. It was wearing me out and I had no peace. Upon reading the 666 book Mark of America Seat of the Beast; The apostle Johns New Testament Revelation Unfolded brought much peace to me.
As a result I began to understand that we either have the mark of the Father in our forehead or the mark of the beast. I certainly had the mark of the beast in my forehead most all of the time as well as in my hand. Though none of us can eliminate having the Mark of the Beast in our hand which is giving and receiving money, we certainly can eliminate the Mark of the Beast from our foreheads. (Always thinking of money and how to get more of it).
So when I think of the amount of energy I expended over the years that have worn me out trying to accumulate the things of this world and living up to what I thought was everyone’s expectations of me plus my own, when I could have enjoyed life more fully and been happier, I have to smile at how I deceived myself so well and allowed others too.
Life is more simple for me now and I am happier and more at peace within myself because of finding this MWAW. Gone are all the houses including the big family home, no longer do I have to stress over how I am going to meet the payments each month and maintain everything. I live in a used trailer which costs me a fraction of what my monthly outgoings was. I use to pay over $90,000 each year in interest payments on properties. In other words I was working for the banks and thought I was being prosperous. What a fool I am.
And what a change this is for me who loved the praise of the world and can honestly say I thought I was better than others because of my material goods and being a member of my former religion and that by my efforts I was somehow better than others who had not worked as hard as I did. How blinded I was. Thank you Moroni for writing as you did in the Sealed Portion and speaking the truth in your words, and oh, how they stung me as I read them.
I am beginning to see things from more of an eternal perspective in light of real truth.
It’s frustrating in a way, because I just want to shout from the roof tops, hey look at what I’ve found, come and see for yourself why you need this and it will set you free. But of course I don’t have any right to impose myself on others and interfere with their free agency unless invited to do so by them. Then I need to ensure I am not throwing “pearls before swine” as in the words of Jesus Christ pertaining to sharing the mysteries of godliness to those who would throw them back at you and trample the sacred truths under foot.
I am a much freer person now than I have been for a very long time. I finally got the courage to leave the LDS church and also to give my wife her freedom as well. I will never have any further affiliations with religion or the expectations and standards imposed by others that I was expected to live up to, that contributed to my being a hypocrite most of the time.
As I read Sacred not Secret book, the official guide in understanding the LDS temple endowment my eyes were really opened and I loved the part where after Adam and Eve leave the garden of Eden and build an alter, Adam is praying and Lucifer shows up and answers their prayers by asking “what is it you want? To which Adam replies “I am looking for messengers from my Father. Then Lucifer replies “Oh! you want religion, I will have preachers here presently” as soon as I read that and became aware of what it meant to me at the time of reading. I thought to myself how I could be so blind and naive as to miss that all along in all of my previous LDS temple attendance. Joseph Smith Jr. put that right in there and is telling me right to my face every time I went to the LDS Temple that I was in a religion set up by Lucifer and confirmed later in the ceremony where he says “Now is the great day of my power, I reign from the rivers to the end of the earth. There is none to molest or make afraid”. In other words Lucifer was plainly stating that he is the God of this Earth. It is he who governs things down here. When Lucifer says “I have a word to say to these people, if they do not live up to every covenant made in this temple this day they will be in my power.
So whose power are the members in? Does any live up to every covenant made in the temple this day?
I came to understand everything about the entire LDS temple ceremony much better with Christopher’s translation of the “SNS Official guide to understanding the LDS temple endowment” than the previous one by Skousen, which I had read much earlier in my search for truth.
No wonder the modern day LDS church was being likened to the old Jewish church. It had been made top heavy with all our own teachings and commandments. We had bound ourselves down with manmade doctrines and commandments tiered with administration and leaders who loved their authority. Now when I think about all the times I used to listen to the leaders speak in conference I realize that they all speak very similarly and with very measured voice and speeches made to measure. How far they are away from what Moroni said to Joseph Smith when he appeared to him in his bedroom and said “There was a book deposited, written upon gold plates, giving an account of the former inhabitants of this continent, and the source from whence they sprang. He also said that the fullness of the Everlasting Gospel was contained in it, as delivered by the Savior to the ancient inhabitants. See Joseph Smith history CH 1 verse 34.
The words as As delivered by the Savior to the inhabitants of this continent (USA) And what is the fullness of the gospel of Jesus Christ? I have now come to understand that it is Nothing more and nothing less than Matthew chapters 5 , 6 and 7 of the new testament in the bible and 3rd Nephi chapters 12, 13, 14, in the book of Mormon as delivered by the Savior to the ancient inhabitants.
The complete fully translated original text of those chapters as done through the Urim and Thummim, is found at this link if you are interested.
I realize now I don’t own anyone and they don’t own me. I am my own person. I am to forgive everyone and treat everyone as I would wish to be treated myself. Everyone is their own person the crowned ruler of their own kingdom (see 666 mark of America seat of the beast). We have all been created equal by our Creators. When I read the Human Reality Book Who We Are and Why We Exist , I realized more fully that I never asked to be created. That was an act performed by my Creator’s for their own pleasure and joy because that’s what they do. I had no say in the matter what so ever.
This was huge for me to come to accept. How freeing?
My creators are there to serve me, not me serve them or worship them. They are the one’s who made me and gave me life so I could experience joy within myself as they also experience joy within themselves.
WOW! But again this made perfect sense to me.
Choosing happiness is a whole new concept for me. This work has contributed enormously to that end in a way that I could never have imagined in my life before.
While I have always liked to read about new ideas and search out new information, I now find that I don’t have the desire to do that much anymore. From all my years of reading and trying to discover new information about life and truth I have found no one to make such perfect sense as has Christopher in this work. So far it truly stands alone in the eternal truths it teaches and which make sense to me compared with all the various books and teachings I have exposed to in the past.
As far as I am concerned the truth has been disclosed and true reality has been revealed and it has made me free and brought a peace within that is wonderful.. A great burden has been lifted off me. Indeed I do not feel addicted to anything at all like I was in the past. Now I can control what I want to do and or experience. That is true freedom.
I am not close minded when I say this, though anyone can judge me whatever way they wish. But in my spirit and in my mind deep down within me, I am satisfied that my search for truth is over. I am fulfilled in a good way in this world and more at peace with who I am. I am happy to just be myself with my long hair ( I let it grow when I realized this work was true for me) and colorful shirts and being more casual than I have ever been. I don’t have to deceive myself or anyone else any longer trying to be someone I am not. I have nothing to prove to anyone other than myself. So just take me as I am.
I love the purpose for which this work has come to stand for, which is the Worldwide United Foundation that there may be no poor among us and that all may have food, clothing, housing, medical care and education and the rich can still be rich and the poor no longer need be poor but have their dignity to live as human beings and take their place among all people of the world as equals and no one’s free agency encroached upon.
Yet for embracing this work and being myself, I have lost ‘friends’ because they believe I have sunk so low in their estimation in supporting this work that unless I mend my ways and come back into the “main stream” they wish to have nothing to do with me. That however is a small price to pay for the beauty and freedom this has offered to me. And yet it is no price at all. For eventually everyone will come to full disclosure of the truth if not now then sometime in the future when everything is finished pertaining to this earthly existence.
I am happy to have found this work now. I rejoice in it. It has set me free to be myself. I am learning to have sufficient for my needs and to make the time to do what I enjoy doing. I am learning to control my flesh and become the observer of my world as well as the partaker. I am able to act, or take action of my own accord, rather than be acted upon by another who may affect my free will. ( Although the purpose of life is to experience opposites.) I am becoming more my own “GOD” and have the free will to do what brings me joy, peace, and happiness as much as is possible in this godforsaken world of ours.
If I can be of any assistance in pointing another to what I have found then I am happy to do so. As Joseph Smith said: “The Glory of God is Intelligence, or Light and Truth.”
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