Clarification and answer. My final warning to my “friends” who have become my “enemies.” Heaven and Hell are emotional states.


I was asked to clarify some points from yesterday’s post, My Reward. The Finality of (Christopher’s) my life.


I was wondering if you can clarify what you have explained in the following two paragraphs:

“They will not “inherit everlasting life” because they will no longer want to remain living in an environment where they cannot enjoy what they used to enjoy while mortal. They will want to end their existence and return to their First State of Existence to join another GROUP. Once awakened in our First Estate, all of our memories are erased.”

“Our Real Self, in this first existence, has always been the way that we are in this existence. We are the same yesterday, today, and forever in this state. If we are the same, then our brain is the same. If our brain is the same, then it has the same memories of experience that it has always had, which does include anything about a mortal life or sex.”

At the end of the first paragraph you mention that,

“Once awakened in our First Estate, all of our memories are erased.”

But in the second paragraph, you mention that our brain, being the same, will “… include anything about a mortal life or sex.”

I re-read it several times to make sure I didn’t miss anything but I still cannot understand how we are to remember our mortal experience or sex if they were wiped out when we go back to our First Estate?


Problem with properly understanding and clarifying these things when discussing our brain activity responsible for consciousness (human life), is that there are three levels of free-willed behavior that occur in a singular brain.

Consider what you know about your mortal brain and these three levels:

  1. You think about something on purpose.  You can think consciously about something by using your free will to form the thought or recall the memory.
  2. Thoughts pop into your head seemingly out of nowhere.  A random thought seems to pop into your head that you weren’t thinking about at the moment.  You did not consciously (with free will) act to produce the thought that popped into your head, but it comes from somewhere and was initiated by something.
  3. You dream.  You cannot control your dreams, but your dreams come from somewhere and was initiated by something.

Humans are the greatest compendium of matter that exists.

The human brain is the most advanced neurological center possible.

Computers, regardless of their power, will never match a perfect, eternal human brain.  Computers can, however, do things that the mortal brain cannot do.  If science were allowed to progress for a few more hundred years, science would start replacing a computers wiring and circuitry with biological components.

(This last time, during this Sixth Dispensation of Human Time, our True Selves will not allow technology to advance to this degree … UNLESS, we solve poverty and inequality first.)

The Real Truth is:

Your present mortal brain is imperfect and “fallen.”  Current mortal bodies were created by very ancient advanced science.  Current mortal bodies are nothing more or less than creations by our ancestors.  These ancient scientists started out the same way current science has, inventing rudimentary computer technology.  Eventually, they were able to incorporate their computer technology into a biological form, thus creating a living, functioning brain.  (More details on this will be given in our final book.)

Just as certain configurations (compendiums) of electrons, neutrons, and protons appear to be eternal elements (and for the sake of this clarification we will assume that they are … but they actually are not and change and are manipulated by human acts), the human individual is an eternal configuration of matter that has always been and will always be.  This is who we actually are as our TRUE SELF.

Side Note for you scientific ones:

Here’s some more cool Real Truth.

Computers have ways of cooling themselves.  As computers operate, they create energy (heat).  There are various means that science utilizes to cool computer operations and get rid of excess heat.

Sleep and our mortal dreams are the way that ancient scientists invented in order to cool down the mortal brain that they created.  This (sleep and uncontrollable dreaming) is a flaw in the overall system because there is no control mechanism for what this release of energy does as it is expelled from a closed system (what kind of dream is created).

In essence,

No one can go without sleep or their brain begins to malfunction.

During the process of cooling down, the energy is released from our mortal Self’s brain into the earth’s environment in the form of sensory disposal (i.e., garbage in the form of what we see, hear, taste, smell, and touch while dreaming).  We took in the energy from the environment through our senses, by what we saw, heard, tasted, smelled, and touched throughout the day.

The same way that the energy came into our brain, it must go out.  As the energy is released from our brain, it is released through our senses and we see, hear, taste, smell, and touch things that we do not consciously choose to experience.

With this side note, one can grasp the purpose for our Second State of Consciousness.

If you look at your Eternal Self’s* brain as the ultimate functioning, most powerful computer possible, then your True Self is the way that your eternal brain naturally cools itself, per se.  Our mortal Self is the way that our True Self’s brain is cooled, per se.  And our dream Self is the way that our mortal brain is cooled … per se.

*(We have discussed ways to present our information and keep the three different levels of consciousness separate from each other.  Eternal Self: our true reality as an eternal individual in our First State of Consciousness.  True Self: our reality as a newly created advanced individual.  Mortal Self: our reality upon this earth.  Dream Self: who we are when we dream.)

So think about this.

What effect does the normal person’s dreams have on their overall conscious experience (daily life)?  Not much.

Although we can sometimes remember reoccurring dreams, we cannot recall most.  We soon forget the dream because we realize it was just a dream.

Let’s see if I can clarify how you can understand what I wrote about:

“… our brain, being the same, will “… include anything about a mortal life or sex.”

Had I used the appropriate terms, I would have written:

Once awakened in our First Estate [as our Eternal Self], all of our memories are erased.

Our Eternal Self, in this first existence, has always been the way that we are in this existence.  Our Eternal Self is the same yesterday, today, and forever in this state.  If we are the same, then our brain is the same.  If our Eternal Self’s brain is the same, then it has the same memories of experience that it has always had, which does not include anything about a mortal life or sex.

How can our Eternal Self be irritated and frustrated as a result of our Eternal Self not being able to have the ultimate, unequivocal, and absolute stimulation of their physical senses?  It’s impossible.  If it were so, then being the same yesterday, today, and forever would mean that our Eternal Self would be constantly suffering from depravation of previous experiences that brought us physical pleasure.

It is our True Self, existing in the Second State of Consciousness, whose brain can bring to remembrance having sex or taking drugs to create the ultimate, unequivocal, and absolute stimulation of the physical senses.

Once you die as a mortal and become immediately conscious as your True Self, you will retain the ability to remember everything and anything about your mortal experience.  You’ll be able to remember the times you had sex and took drugs.  In fact, the recollection of the memory in your highly advanced, perfect brain will actually be a reenactment of the mortal experience in every detail.  But because you do not have the same physical body, the way that your True Self’s body responds to the memory stimulation is going to be much different than how your mortal Self’s body responded and experienced it.

This is hell.

Those who are not “servers,” although they were able to have sex and take drugs while mortal and experience the extraordinary effects of an orgasm or ecstasy, can easily remember the physical experience, will no longer have the type of body that can fully experience an orgasm or ecstasy.

It can be easily and appropriately stated:

If you love sex and drugs, you’re going to be in hell … UNLESS your humanity type is Solarian (a server).

The only way to release yourself from this hell is to come back to earth as a mortal so that you can continue to have sex and take drugs.  This is why we have a continued population of humans on Earth that will continue until our True Selves (as a group) have determined that “that’s enough.”**  But if the earth is destroyed, you won’t have a platform any longer on which you can have the experience of an orgasm or ecstasy you felt during sex or taking drugs.  Your True Self will want to reproduce these experiences because you can perfectly remember what sex and drugs did for your physical body.

**The reason why we have determined that this sixth try is the last try, is because there are 15.07 billion advanced humans (True Selves) who would love to have the mortal experience on a fair playing field so that they can have the individual experience that their True Self needs.  I explained that not all of OUR GROUP has had sex or taken drugs while mortal.  These are the smart ones.  These “True Selves” take the bodies of a down-syndrome, autistic or savant mortals who have abnormal brains … or do they?  Or are they more perfect in their humanity than the rest of normal mortals?

My sister Bridgette, who is down-syndrome, couldn’t care less about sex or drugs.  Bridgett’s emotional state has not changed since the time she was a little child.  Bridgette is the epitome of an aged little child.  But she does care about what she sees, what she hears, what she smells, what she touches, and especially what she eats.

Although she hardly sees me, and probably won’t again during this life, if asked, “Bridgette, who is your favorite brother?”  She answers, “Cwris.”

Bridgette and I have shared a bond that none of my other siblings shared with her or with me.  I didn’t understand this bond until June 16, 1987.  Bridgette is one of my eternal friends in our Second Estate of Existence.

(And for the record, my mother Diane and my kid brother Joe and kid sister Alesa, are also my eternal friends.  Although these three have no clue who they actually are or what they mean to me, and although their mortal Self is out-of-control and hardly a true reflection of their True Self’s desires, these three have inner mortal hearts of gold.  They will never know their son and brother Chris as well as Christopher knows each of them.)

My Final Warning To My “Friends”

If you believe that you are a “server,” please consider the following carefully.

ALL humans are equal as advanced humans.  No humanity type is better or worse than any other.  Each humanity type is a choice made by the individual.

That said,

A “server” is not immune from the “state of hell” in regards to “fearful looking for the fiery indignation of the wrath of [their True Self] upon them” (… I’ll explain where I got this quote below).

I have a lot of compassion on my eternal friends.  I have ridiculed, abused, condemned and alienated many whose mortal Self caused more problems in my life than good.  I am going to mention a few here, as my role towards them has now changed.  They are my “eternal friends” and it is expedient for this last time that I must warn them.

There is one mortal person whom I have treated worse than all others: Julie L. Taggart.

Julie is the “judge” of the rest of my “eternal friends” with whom I have shared this current mortal incarnate.

Julie’s life and actions set the precedent and offer the evidence that a person can be sorely mistreated by his or her True Messenger, as was purposeful and consistent with my role, but still remain loyally devoted to me and this work.  At any time, Julie could have “moved on.”  She has never.

Finally, I can be Julie’s friend.  She will finally begin to feel the bond that we share as advanced human, eternal friends.

I mentioned Kimberly Wallis and Bob Newton in my last post.  These are also my eternal friends, but their actions fight me and this work instead of supporting this work with all of their heart, might, mind, and strength, which is the true desire of their advanced True Self.

I must give this warning to Kimberly and Bob, as well as to a few others whose True Self is one of my eternal friends:

If you do not change your mortal ways and put heart and soul into the Marvelous Work and a Wonder® and The Humanity Party®, once this mortal life has ended, your True Self will also end your existence in the Second Estate.

This same warning is also for John and Lily Roh, Nathan and Kristin Davis, Sharon Cox, Robbie Pace, Bill Witt … and are ready for it … Harry and Jodi Dschaak.

(NOTE: I would have never let these now critics and enemies close to me if they did not have a role to play in this work.  This role has to do with giving empirical evidence of what Joseph’s friends-turned-enemies did during his lifetime.  History is vague and does not give a lot of details about these things.  For what it’s worth to Robbie, Bill, and Harry: respectively, James Strang, William McLellin, and John Bennett were Joseph’s eternal friends who were meant to play a role that was important at that time.  You three will never find peace upon this earth unless or until you fully support this incredible work.  You will never be able to let it go.  But if you “repent” and return to a supportive role, you will have never been happier.  Mark my words.  I will not say anything more about any of you again.)

And, my heart and soul does not want to say this last name, but I must … Sheryl Anne Nemelka.

These people mentioned above are my eternal friends.  In the case of Nate and Sheri, although they are not intimately involved with me in our Second Estate, they are probably two of the most important people in OUR GROUP.

Each of you was meant to fulfill a role, even an adversarial role for a wise purpose and time while we were attempting to effectuate a change through religious means.  This attempt failed.  But if you continue to disregard this work, you will bring more indirect persecution on me, which won’t matter much to me at this point, but it will matter to your True Self.  You cannot move on from this work without making it more difficult for the rest of us still involved in this work.

The Spirit of Lucifer has “taken possession of your house.”  Your mortal desires have become more important than this work, which you know, or have known, is a unique and very important work.  If you do not change your mortal ways, once your mortal life has ended and you return to your true existence as one of my eternal friends, you will become aware of your actions and you will feel a “darkness, and a state of awful, fearful looking for the fiery indignation of your [True Self].”

Each of you is an equal god, just like the rest of us.  Your True Self is not going to continually suffer knowing what you did as a mortal.  Your True Self is going to end your existence in our Second Estate and you will return to (awaken by choice) your Eternal Self and will no longer have any recollection of your True Self or any of your mortal Selves, or any one else of OUR GROUP.

Julie Taggart is your judge.  If she can do it, and she has regardless of how I have treated her in the past, she has proven that you can too.

But if once your house was swept clean, “when the unclean spirit is gone,” and you begin to “walk through dry places, seeking rest, and find none,” and you desire to “return to the house from whence you came out” (in other words return to your worldly ways) and you find it “empty, swept, and garnished,” you are more apt to do harm than good for this work … “taking with you seven other spirits more wicked than yourself and they enter in and dwell there” … your last state shall be worse than the first.”

Because I have been relieved from my adversarial role as a True Messenger with a “sharp two-edged sword coming out of his mouth,” I can now speak to you as your eternal friend.  I will miss you if decide that the emotional strain is too much for you to handle.  I miss you now, as a mortal.  But I will not miss you as an advanced True Self.  I will be happy for you to return to your Eternal Self.

(This is the last warning that I am going to give to above named individuals.)

Again, all humans are equal, regardless of their humanity type.

The way that my mentors explained this important clue in their Book of Mormon is both beautiful and profound.

As you read it, keep in mind that these words were meant for a religious audience in an effort to get them to soften their hearts and open their minds.  This clue ends the perception of Heaven and Hell as actual locations as believed by the major religions of this world.

There is no actual place as “hell”; nor is there an actual place as “heaven.”  We return to the location in which we have always existed.

“Heaven and Hell” are simply emotional states.

Enjoy their words:

“Now, concerning the state of the soul between death and the resurrection—Behold, it has been made known unto me by an angel, that the spirits of all men, as soon as they are departed from this mortal body, yea, the spirits of all men, whether they be good or evil, are taken home to that God who gave them life.

And then shall it come to pass, that the spirits of those who are righteous are received into a state of happiness, which is called paradise, a state of rest, a state of peace, where they shall rest from all their troubles and from all care, and sorrow.

And then shall it come to pass, that the spirits of the wicked, yea, who are evil—for behold, they have no part nor portion of the Spirit of the Lord; for behold, they chose evil works rather than good; therefore the spirit of the devil did enter into them, and take possession of their house—and these shall be cast out into outer darkness; there shall be weeping, and wailing, and gnashing of teeth, and this because of their own iniquity, being led captive by the will of the devil.

Now this is the state of the souls of the wicked, yea, in darkness, and a state of awful, fearful looking for the fiery indignation of the wrath of God upon them; thus they remain in this state, as well as the righteous in paradise, until the time of their resurrection.”  (BOM, Alma 40:11-14)



  1. Craig Nichols

    It was really great, Christopher and Marc helping me understand this better. I had to read through this article twice before it finally clicked. I for one,appreciate the extra effort. The description of an advanced human in the first estate is pretty mind boggling, it’s the most difficult thing to visualize, and that’s where explanation is more critical. While I’m more solid on the dream state, my idea of the advanced eternal state can sway with every tide quite easily, not having a very firm grasp upon it. When I first starting studying the MWAW it was like that for EVERYTHING, LOL. I had to second guess myself and test the logic of it for years before it calmed down. Talk about rewarding results after alot of effort though…..

  2. Peggy

    So everyone but servers or Solarians are going back to their First Estate and have to start over again. I thought that was only the fate of the son of perdition. I am assuming there are no more Three degrees of glory with everyone assigned to their own planet depending upon their humanity type, as talked about in MWAW.

  3. Marc Bertrand

    Thanks Christopher for the response and further clarification.
    I see what caused the ‘what-seemed’ contradiction. The word ‘not’ was missing in the original paragraph – “…which does (not) include anything about a mortal life or sex”.
    I’m still amazed at how you can still write all that you do and not have more typo errors. When I write something, I have to read it at least 3-5 times before sending it off. And even then, I realized after reading what I sent, there were still errors!
    Take care!

  4. Jason Lee Natte

    I do have a question that Ive been longing to ask some time.. whenever it appropriate & or if it’s gonna be beneficial to the cause;

    I’ve been curious what exactly is occuring between an autistics true self & mortal avatar during a seizure?

  5. tanyadevany

    Are all Solarian people gendered as their true selves? I thought it was just the ones that became parents.

  6. vanlehnandy

    I’m not 100% sure if I’m on the same planet as Christopher in our real world but if I am, then I ask my True Self to walk over to him and give him a hug and to tell him thanks.

    Also, Christopher mentioned he is “done using profanity” which is great but for the record, my Mortal Self wants to tell Christopher that he is one Badass Motherfucker!

  7. This Stellarian thanks you. I too, was confused, but now, feel like I am not. I am grateful to know I will be forgotten, in Eternity. I used to be terrified of such a prospect, but am now at peace. 🙂

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